How is it that anytime before this last doctor's appointment (yesterday morning) I have been okay with Vinny coming after his due date but yesterday after the doctor's update I was disappointed and moody and not wanting him to be overdue. I went to the appointment with high hopes of me making progress towards Vinny's big debut...but that was quickly shattered by the doctor's update. I am as of today (aug. 11) 4 days from my due date and have not dialated AT ALL and 0% effaced, oh yeah and his head has gone back up to being in the free and easy floating position. Yes, I can look at the cup half full and say that I get a few more days or weeks (who knows) of somewhat uninterupted sleep and more one on one time with my Susie-suz. But I'll tell you yesterday was one of those half empty days when I made yet another appointment for next Tuesday for a non-stress test, ultrasound (to tell how big the baby is) and to see if there is any progress in the dialation department. I was also a little frusterated that I had to make an appointment for an ultrasound because in my doctor's words he didn't want to miss this being "A 10 POUND BABY". A 10 pound baby - yikes! I have only gained 20 pounds this pregnancy and so I was expecting a baby just about the size that Sue was (7 lbs. 5 oz.) but apparently the doctor is thinking Vinny is going to be a big strapping boy. Thank you for reading (listenting) to my petty little complaints. I am through now...acutally not yet.
Today my dad is getting remarried and I am not there.
How is it that life seems so busy right before a baby comes with preparations and all but at the same time how time seems to stand still. I am stuck right now in the middle of this whirlwind where I feel like the world is flying past me and I am standing here wondering when, where, what.
Another thing that I am feeling frusterated about is (all of the women out there that have had to wait until their due date or AFTER like me with Susie will understand me and all of you women that always come EARLY can just stop reading this post right now because it doesn't apply to you - so there - as you can see I am just a bit frusterated with those women that never go ALL THE WAY) that I never am the one that comes early. You see I know of someone that was due the same day as me and she got induced and her baby is already 2 weeks old, another girl at church was due a week after me and her baby is over a week old, and my sweet sister-in-law (I love you Jalei but am a bit jealous that you are at a 2) is dialated to a 2 and is 70 % effaced and is due 2 weeks AFTER me. I can't help asking myself the question of "Do my babies not want to come and see their mommy and daddy? Susie was 5 days late and who knows how late Vinny will be."
Don't worry about me though because after last night's cry session on Jim's shoulder, after I told him I just needed a good cry, I feel recharged and am seeing the glass very half-full today. Back to finishing up my half-finished projects.
